Hey, peeps. I went to see a doctor today, I wasn’t referred to a physician (which would have been my preference, but I know no way of booking an appointment directly here unless I travel an hour up the road), but I’ve been given a course of antidepressants (Amitriptyline - 1 a day) and a course of beta blockers/anti anxiety drugs (Propranolol - 3 a day). I’ve taken my first dose of Propranolol already, and I’m beginning to feel a lot more calm (since I woke up today with continuous anxiety, my doctor said I had a very accelerated heart rate), I’m a bit skeptical about starting the antidepressants, but I’m going to do so anyway.
I woke up today to see my inbox jam-packed and so many lovely replies on my post.
I am trying very hard to stay positive, so far it’s worked because I’ve realised that I’m not alone.
I have hope. I have hope because all of you have given me hope.
I will do my best to reply to all of you personally, because those of you who gave up your time to help me certainly deserve some of my time in return!
What can I say, I love you all.
I’m currently suffering an intense bout of anxiety and depression, with frequent panic attacks and recurring thoughts of suicide.
I went to my mother for help, and she said that I have “no reason to be depressed”, that I should “stop wallowing in it”, “snap out of it”, that “it could be worse”, that there are “people who are starving or losing members of their family”, that I should “read a funny book” and that I’m bound to feel better if I do
The problem is, nothing is currently making me happy. I’m struggling and I don’t know what to do. I have no one here to support me.
What do I do?
Please help me.
Fun fact: my eyebrows are sentient.